Mystical Soul http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/ ... journey into the mystic moonlight with the faes as they explore the perils of a 'Gen X' mommy of 4 & self-employed web-hoster & graphic designer's daily life ... en Copyright 2012 Mon, 30 Aug 2010 02:40:43 -0500 http://www.sixapart.com/movabletype/ http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss 2 Poems by Me this bed is cold & lonely this heart is sad & scared this mind is dark & dreary this hope is fading & falling this love is strong & brave this us is always & forever - written by becky a. smith 08.28.10 2.
thinking of eleven more years until you’re physically here with me breaks my heart but, your love mends it back together every night giving me a new strength to carry through another day - written by becky a. smith 08.28.10
*The eleven years thing is how much longer until he maxes out I don't believe he'll max out, but it is a growing fear of mine.]]> http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2010/08/2_poems_by_me.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2010/08/2_poems_by_me.html Love Poems & Stories Mon, 30 Aug 2010 02:40:43 -0500 Thoughts on what makes a couple Husband & Wife A Thing Called ... Love" ]]> http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2010/02/thoughts_on_what_makes_a_coupl.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2010/02/thoughts_on_what_makes_a_coupl.html Love Sun, 07 Feb 2010 15:23:12 -0500 <![CDATA[A Thing Called ... Love! <3]]> ♥ Truly, Always & Forever ♥ I'm Happily Married to my soulmate!! We are lost love's that found each other again & rekindled what we had ... The depth of our love, the strength of our bond .. is unlike anything else we've ever had with anyone else - an untouchable, unbreakable Love. Wasting those 16 years fighting what we felt inside, fighting that pull back to each other. We're both ecstatic we finally stopped fighting Fate's hand to bring us back together & thankful our Eternal Flame continued burning all these years as it has. He is my everything, as I am his! We do have obstacles & hurdles in front of us ... but, he's worth it for me, I'm worth it for him ... and we're worth it for each other! We will never go another day without the other in it, even if we can't physically be together right now every day - our hearts are with each other every day, every hour, every minute, every second! Yes ~ it's a sappy, mushy love story - it's Our Love Story ... a Great True Love that even time, distance & hurdles couldn't keep apart! The curious I'm sure would like to know if Our Love is so great why did it end to begin with? well that lays on myself; as I had a very manipulative sister who played a lot of mind games on me all my life and yes I allowed, in a sense, her to get into my head & change the facts and truth about what him & I had ... so I broke up with him, even though I was 4 or so months pregnant with our son. He ran a few states south to try to escape the pain he was in ... I ran north in the same state, to escape mine. We both tried to move on, even gave outward appearances we had, but reality within us - we never moved on. So yes, because of it all - we were without each other, living lives that weren't our destiny and caught in the middle was our son who went almost 16 years never knowing his real dad. Thankfully, I did right by our son and he never had any bad feelings towards his dad (or his family) & has welcomed his dad fully into his life :) Our son is also very happy we are together now, he supports us & stands beside us :) Well there ya go, the short version - Here's a Time Line ... We met in 1992 ; our first date was Dec. 27th 1992 with our 2nd date Dec 31st 1992 after that we spent the next 5 or so months together practically 24/7 (yep by end of Jan 1993 we were living together). Broke up late May 1993 - our son was born Oct 27th 1993. September 14th 2009 I contacted him by sending a letter to him (he is in prison) ... that is where our rekindled love story starts up. We count Sept. 23rd 2009 as our official "got back together" date. We Renewed Our Heart Vows to each other as husband & wife on November 7th 2009. Within our hearts we committed as Spiritual Husband & Wife Dec 27th 1992 & though we were on different paths for 16 of those years, the bond of our Love for each other never seized. Our hopeful date to make us Legal is December 27th 2012 :) [You may be interested in reading "Thoughts on what makes a couple Husband & Wife" I travel 3 hours each way every other Saturday to visit him, sometimes every Saturday if money allows. We get about 10 hours together. The chairs suck haha, but we do get to sit next to each other, can hold hands - we talk about so much & of course have those moments where we get lost in each others eyes :) Our first visit was Nov. 1st 2009, that month it wasn't quite every other Sat. as we were still working out the schedule. He calls me atleast once a day - sadly the calls are limited to 15 minutes each, but we take what we can. We write to each other all the time too. One day soon this part of our lives will be a thing in our past and we'll finally be together fully again. Until then we cherish every letter, every call & every visit we can get! ----- - **UPDATE JULY 30TH 2010** - We last seen each other June 5th 2010 - we got in trouble for pushing the rules to far (yes being alittle dumb & not thinking - getting alittle lost in the moment you could say - it wasn't nothing out there, if ya know what I mean but it was breaking the rules no matter how dumb we think they are) and we lost our visiting privileges :*( It's a "permanent" restriction, but after 6 months we can petition the warden of his facility to reinstate them. July 1st 2010 he had his 2nd parole hearing - his first one was Dec 9th 2009 which resulted in a flop (denial) due to MDOC not getting him into the required group *rolls eyes* - well with budget issues in our state they are starting to allow some to take the needed group outside as a condition of parole so he was called back 1 month into his 12 month flop, which surprised us. The hearing went well, but it does take 2 parole members with same vote - so though the 1st says parole if the 2nd says flop then a 3rd is the tie breaker. if the 2nd agrees to parole then no need for 3rd one. We're still awaiting the decision (they say allow up to 30-45days for it), which has been torture on both of us. His last hearing we didn't hold on to much hope because of the rules then, but with the changes we know there's actually hope he really could be finally coming home to me where he has always belonged ♥ I will of course post as a status & update this once we have a decision :) .... His ERD (Earliest Release Date)/Minimum was June 2010 - his Max Out is September 2021 so of course we're hoping for a parole or TIS being revoked/Good Time restored for our state - though I'll wait as long as needed because this Love is for Life, but yeah having him physically here with me every day would be much better lol :) - **UPDATE AUGUST 31st 2010** - Took 54 days after hearing to get decision & it took the interviewer 41 days to decide to flop him :*( Took the 2nd parole member 7 days after that to agree. Got decision August 25th. We wouldn't be so angry about the decision, except that the interviewer voted the opposite of what he pretty much said he was gonna. He had said "you've been in there too long & time for you to go home" & "you'll never get group in there", so it's like, wow him signing those flop papers is basically him saying he wants My Love ♥ to max out - I lost what little hope I had in the board & part of me is preparing myself for another 11 years of this bullshit until he does max out - but, I'm not quitting nor will I ever - our love is worth all the bullshit the system does to us, they won't break me, him or us from our dreams coming true - us being fully together as one ♥ again - because they can't hold him forever. Same day we got word he was being transferred to another facility - which is good news as he has needed to be moved outta the current for awhile. Hopefully he is being transferred to a facility closer to me & we're able to lift our visiting ban, as I so need to see him it's been almost 3 months since we last seen each other :*( And hopefully this transfer is to finally get him into the class the board wants him to have before letting him go (though with changes they could've let him take it outside as part of parole, so that's why we were hopeful he'd get a parole) - so when he sees the board again in about 6 months or so that time we'll get the answer we so desperately want to see. - He was moved slightly closer to me - a whole 30 minutes closer lol - so when I get my visits back instead of a 3 hour drive each way, it'll be 2 1/2 hours. His new counselor/rum confirmed they do offer the class/group there he needs, so yay ~ now put him IN that 6 month thing so he can finally get it done! She also told him that in Sept, 3 months after the incident that caused our restriction he can start sending kites to see the warden to beg for our visits back. She briefly looked over the case & said she didn't see why we wouldn't get them back. I hope she's right. - **UPDATE JANUARY 20TH 2011** - Well it's been awhile since I updated this. He was suppose to see the board again middle of November 2010 - yes 3 times in front of the board in less than 12 months - all while they still had not put him in the group they said he needed before they would release him *sigh* So of course they flopped him yet again. That time instead of a 12 month flop they did an 18 month (??) and instead of starting the clock on the decision date as they're suppose to, they added it on top of his previous flop making it so his next reconsideration date isn't until Dec 2012! Thankfully, we know they will call him back in front of them long before that, but it's the principle of it. Why call him back again when you know you're gonna flop him and then basically give him that long of a flop. He found out the decision the 20th of Nov in the morning, in the evening he got a pass for a call out the next morning .... to finally start group! so yay! :) He should be done with it May 21st 2011. So I'm thinking the board is gonna see him in April or May 2011 and if he isn't done with group yet then they'll defer him (which means, hold off on making a decision) until the psych report is done (She has 30 days to complete and turn in all of them - there's 12 in the group). So it's possible he could get a parole late May or in June and they most likely will give him a NFD (Non Fixed Date) which means they must release him within 30 days of the decision date. So he could possibly be home end of June or sometime in July if the PB does what it should. But, ah yes we are talking about MDOC & the PB so it's all a guessing game on when they'll release someone. -- In the meantime we have submitted our request to get our visits back, we did that back in December. So hopefully any day now we get a response. With no response yet then that is looking good as it means the warden where he is approves of returning them and has sent it off for Lansing to either agree or disagree with him. Once that happens [assuming they agree & give back our visiting rights] then I'll need to submit another visit app and hope they follow through with my right to visit him being restored. The whole process, from start to finish, can take 3-4 months. Sometimes sooner. So it's possible we might get our visits back shortly before he hopefully comes home. **Oh we had to wait until Dec to request our visits back because in Aug shortly after the convo with that counselor he got notice they took all of his visiting rights (before they had only taken my right to visit, that letter stated he could no longer have visits from anyone) - it also stated he had to wait 6 months from the date of the letter to get them back. We submitted our letters to the warden alittle early - as December was 6 months from the incident and he was also told to start it early so by the time they restore it'll be the 6 month mark from when that letter was dated** Now of course I'm living by the motto of "Expect the worse, but hope for the best" with both our visits and his parole. It's all I can do anymore with the lies & let downs we've gone through with MDOC so far. -- We're missing each other like crazy! Thankfully we can talk on the phone daily, that helps a lot. And of course we still write each other almost every day :) Just need to see each other too even if for only 10 hours in lousy plastic lawn type chairs! lol Ok I'm done rambling lol :) - **UPDATE AUGUST 6TH 2011** - Been awhile again since I last updated this. In February we got word that his right to have visitors was reinstated, however mine could not be considered again until exactly 1 year after the incident! I am very happy to say though, that when June rolled around I did get my right back to visit again :) and early July my app was approved, so I can officially visit My Love ♥ again :) Unfortunately (!) the used car I had bought end of February broke down middle of June :( Even though it was a Ford it had a foreign motor in it *rolls eyes* so the cost to repair the clutch was going to be $1500 (between parts & labor), I paid $1300 for it & already put $700 into it so no way was I going to pay that, plus I didn't (still don't) have the money. So I now have no car (again) & no money to replace it *sigh* So though I can now visit again, I have no way to :*( ... also in June the new phone contract went into effect & the cost of calls doubled so we also can't talk as much as we could before :( [I have a huge rant about that phone contract & the price gouging & "special equipment fund" added on to jack the prices & make us, family & friends of inmates, make up for MDOC's budget shortage!! but, this is not the place]. David did successfully complete group May 21st 2011 & the psych had her report done within 1 week. We are still waiting for the board to request to see him again. Once that finally happens they should release him, as he has done everything required plus more. - **UPDATE September 4th 2011** - Yesterday, after almost 15 months, we finally got to visit again :) I was able to borrow a vehicle & I am so very thankful & grateful not only for that, but also my family for watching the younger 2 so that I could spend 11 wonderful hours with my husband ---------- ♥.D&B.OurLoveIs4Ever! ♥ "My Heart, My Soul, My Life" ♥ Separated only by Time & Miles for 16 years during our journeys down our wrong paths, never by Heart or Soul! It's been wonderful being back with the only man who completes me in every sense! ♥ "Truly, Always & Forever is my love for him & his for me!" ♥ "No matter what people may say, I'm going to love him anyway!" ♥ "Looking into his eyes, I see all that I need" ♥ "Sometimes we make love with our eyes" ♥ "The flame of our love will never die, for it burns through the stars for eternity" ♥ "If the love is true and meant to be ~ You will feel it through the heart, mind, and soul" ♥ "Love is when two hearts become one. True love is when two souls become one." ♥ "True Love doesn't have a happy ending ... because True Love doesn't have an ending" ♥ "Love which has been tested by distance & obstacles and has passed .... is True Love" ♥ "I can't even fathom my life without him. My heart is his & his heart is mine. We are one" ]]> http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2010/01/a_thing_called_love_3.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2010/01/a_thing_called_love_3.html Life Love Poems & Stories Mon, 18 Jan 2010 19:07:53 -0500 Huge Update lol Well so much has happened since I last really posted here. I know I am a terrible blogger & I'm sure by now my readers are no longer stopping by, but just in case they are ... here is an update on my life! lol First off, I have unpublished my last entry which talked about a house purchased. Things didn't go as planned with it, sadly we have had to walk away from it as it was just too much. I love the house, so it sucks, but because of other things that also happened afterward it was going to have to happen no matter what. My marriage of almost 13 years is finally over. Please do not express pity or sadness. Some of my long time internet friends know that this was going to eventually happen. It almost happened a few times over the years, but I forced myself to stick it out for the security. It finally came to a point that even that wasn't worth it anymore. The marriage has been dead since really before it began. We both used each other in this so-called marriage. I used him for the security & he used me for someone to come home to. See the job he has, has him away from the home 9-10 months of the year. Which is why it was able to work in the beginning. However, there was never really any love there. I mean don't get me wrong, I do have love for him because he was a good provider for us & I do have 3 beautiful daughter's as a result of the marriage. We are divorced in every sense possible with exception of legal. That will most likely happen within a year. We want to wait until atleast after the end of the year, as tax time it is best for us to file jointly as usual. Even though a lot of people never knew this, as it's not something most normal woman want to go around admitting, but my oldest - my son Nick - there was doubt on his paternity. The doubt didn't come about until the day he was born & the doctor's ran some testing & said he was 2-3 weeks atleast over-due. Because of that, then it took conception to a time period when the relationship with my then boyfriend was in the early stages & I did end up 1 time having sex with an ex. There is a long complicated back story to why this wasn't done sooner & why neither guy was around. I will state it was not on either of them, but me. The break up with the the then boyfriend was because of someone manipulating my thoughts (even more complicated story to that one!) & because I hurt him he ran instead of fighting for me, for us. We were young (I was 18 & he was 16 almost 17) & we didn't have the maturity nor strength to fight for our love, to fight against the huge obstacle tearing us apart right before our eyes that we didn't actually see, all while we wondered, "what the heck just happened?". After Nick was born I was going through a rough time because of the murder of my 1st nephew & his murderer still being free. so I ran, ran all the way to northern Michigan from the Detroit area. The only people I said good bye to was my mom & step-dad. Not even my closest friends knew I was leaving. Nick was only 8 months or so at the time. When he was 3 years old, after my 2nd nephew's murder by the same person & her eventual conviction for that one's murder, I was finally able to grieve their deaths. It took me another 5 years to finally realize what I had done, leaving like I did. So I begin the hard task of trying to find both of the guys. I lived over 5 hours a way from where I last knew they were and the internet was my only option. Suffice it to say I didn't get very far until this past summer. Thanks to facebook I found 1 of them. I did also find the other guy, my then boyfriend, but at a different site. I asked both if they were willing to take a dna. the 2nd guy had known there was a possibility, but the 1st guy never knew, since as I wrote above he had ran to try to escape the pain of our break up. The first guy, Dave (the then boyfriend) was the one named his father & he had no doubts even after all these years, but said no problem on taking a paternity test. Unfortunately though, he is in prison so without a court order we couldn't easily do that. The 2nd guy, P, it took me a few months to get a yes from him - feelings complicated him giving me a yes, it was never about denying Nick, but about the fear he wouldn't be, as he always wanted & hoped he was. Once I got the yes then things moved fast, thanks to the fact you can walk into your local WalGreen's and purchase a dna kit. I traveled downstate to P, he swabbed his cheek then next day I mailed the kit out which also included Mine & Nick's dna. I did it next day to speed the process along. The company claims 3-5 days for results from time they get it, well shockingly the results were ready in only 2 days. I logged onto the site & I am so happy I can finally look at my now 16 year old son & say "Dave is your father", instead of saying "it's either Dave or P". I will take this time to now explain that all these years I knew without a doubt I had a strong true love / soulmate connection to a guy from my past. I longed to be reunited with him, he is the reason I could never fully love another. I will admit, because of shit my very manipulative sister did to my mind (unless you've lived a life with someone like her, you have no clue how intense & real they can make lies to you) I falsely put P in that title. After we were reunited (both myself with P & with Dave) the real true memories were able to come forth and the truth was, P was not that at all, he was important to me, but no he was not my true love. Instead letters & calls between Dave & I (along with the real true memories) revealed that he is my true love, my soul and I am his. Dave & I have reunited our love for each other & though where he is currently does add obstacles for us, it is worth it to finally be reunited with my love. He is my yesterday, my today, my tomorrow .. my forever ... and I am his ♥ We have made a commitment to each other and yes, we have even spiritually, within our hearts ... basically in every way possible except legal ... married each other. He is my husband, and I am his wife. To describe what we have with each other is impossible, it's a love only we can convey to each other with a look, with words, with a smile ... It is a bonus that he is in fact Nick's real dad. **Edit to add the below** I travel 3 hours each way to visit him every other Saturday. The visits are from 10am until 8pm. It does suck as there are rules! We can hug/kiss at beginning and at end. during the visit we sit next to each other and we can hold hands. People don't understand how we can spend 10 hours together like that every other Saturday lol .. even his fellow inmates ask him what we talk about & do. We just giggle and say the truth .. we talk about everything and when we aren't talking we're just basking in our love together. We also talk on the phone 3-4 times a day @ 15 minutes each time. Some nights it's so hard to say goodbye knowing it'll be a day before we talk again. Plus lol, we write to each other a few times a week. We should know by mid-February if he might be released this year ... if not then obviously we'll keep waiting until he is released. Of course we hope he doesn't max out as that won't be until 2021 .. but, I'm here - I'm waiting it out for however long it takes until we can be together in all senses possible. ♥ we went 16 years with no contact at all, I know we can handle this and our love will continue to survive it all :) Ok, I think that covers everything lol December 27th 2009 he officially, in person asked me to marry him (again, first time was January 1992) :) I of course said yes (again)! This proposal came exactly 17 years to the day of our first date lol This was not planned as we both didn't put it together until after I was there for the visit. http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2009/11/huge_update_lol.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2009/11/huge_update_lol.html Life Love Rugrats Sat, 28 Nov 2009 23:08:35 -0500 Yeah I know ... lol Been way too long since I posted =( My only excuse is life has taken over lol If everything goes as planned I should be back to more how I was 2 years ago by the end of the year. I hope everyone has been having a wonderful summer (or winter depending where you live) http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2008/08/yeah_i_know_lol.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2008/08/yeah_i_know_lol.html General Sun, 24 Aug 2008 14:28:05 -0500 Julie's Bike-A-Thon - can you help? http://mysticmoon74.com/JulieFundRaiser.html (you may pass on that url if you think others may be interested in helping too) Money needs to be turned in by April 17th 2008. Thanks so much =)]]> http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2008/03/julies_bikeathon_can_you_help.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2008/03/julies_bikeathon_can_you_help.html General Rugrats Wed, 19 Mar 2008 12:42:09 -0500 Where oh where Wow it's been too long since I last posted. Where to begin. Let's see well Julie & I both had birthday's in early December =) Sabrina is still doing great since her eye surgery. The "lazy eye" part of her condition is as fixed as it can be, you really can't tell anymore. The other part where it hangs out in the lower part is only kinda fixed. She needs to see the ophthalmologist again end of March. If no change or little then he'll schedule another surgery this time to tighten the top (last time he loosen the bottom). Miss Sabrina also decided that 10 months 1 week was the perfect age to begin walking. She's everywhere now lol She's got the walking down so is working on jogging :-p She has 3 teeth so far, all lower. She's been working hard on the 4th lower one for a few weeks now. Nick, Julie & Catie are doing great, not too much new with them. Other then that not much really happening, hence the lack of a new post here lol Until next time.... http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2008/01/where_oh_where.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2008/01/where_oh_where.html Life Rugrats Updates Sun, 13 Jan 2008 22:24:42 -0500 Surgery Updates & More Both girls made it through their surgeries with no issues. Catie was a champ. I'm proud of how brave she was. With her it could've went any way so of course I had my fingers crossed she'd be ok with everything. She didn't want to take the liquid med's (to calm her anxiety) which didn't surprise me as she dislikes taking all medicines. She did finally take it under much protest. Once that stuff kicked in though she was a different child. She didn't even care people were touching her, life was grand lol Afterwards she woke up & wasn't scared or anything. She slept the whole 2 hours back and pretty much the rest of the day and a lot the next day. She did throw up through out the first day though =( but she doesn't remember it now which is good. I had to take her to her dentist this past Monday (her surgery was Oct 26th) to have the stitch removed he had to put in, since he needed to pull 2 teeth next to each other. She did wonderful for that too =) Sadly though she isn't brushing her teeth right still so she's already got plaque build up =( I need to now force her into letting me brush her teeth once a day and she needs to go for cleanings every 3 months until she final can brush them right. Sabrina's surgery went wonderful. She slept the whole 2.5 hours there (kinda bad weather) and the whole 2 hours back. Considering she hadn't eaten in over 12 hours by the time she went back she handled it great =D Her eye looks great. So far she hasn't had too many issues adjusting to fact her left eye can now move all around & see different sides etc She has been cranky since the surgery which was yesterday (the 8th) morning and sleeping a lot but overall she's doing great. She needs to go for a follow up next Tuesday. I've lost count now how many trips I've made to Traverse City since July between Catie & Sabrina (plus once for me lol) Let's see ... oh Nick's collarbone is healing wonderfully he's almost back to doing everything he was prior, which exception to playing tackle football with no gear lmao. My baby boy turned 14 on Oct 27th. It's so unreal that I have a child that old lol Julie's been a bit of a handful lately. Not sure what's going on with her just hope it passes soon :p Her birthday is fast approaching, she's gonna be 5 on Dec 2nd =D Ummm think that's it for now .... oh wait Happy 9 month Birthday today to Sabrina! =) I'm doing good just exhausted, which should be no surprise lol. http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/11/surgery_updates_more.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/11/surgery_updates_more.html Life Rugrats Fri, 09 Nov 2007 19:58:51 -0500 Where to begin lol Well this year just keeps getting more & more interesting to say the least lol What's new since my last entry .... Let's see, Julie dropped cheerleading. They were too loud for her, which I found a bit ironic but whatever lol. I'm very big on allowing my children to decide of their own free will what activities they will participate in & if at anytime they are no longer enjoying it, they do not need to continue. So what ended up happening is ... I now have the 3 older ones taking weekly Art. Their first lesson together was Wed. oh man they enjoyed it so much & all 3 are so talented *beams* Sunday night poor Sabrina had an accident with one of the dogs =( I will preface this with, we had been training the dog that if he sees or hears her coming to gently get up & go to another room. He learned it so fast & was doing awesome. But Sunday night she snuck up on him & grabbed a hold of him. He then tried to do what he was trained to do but she had a tight grip on him so he struggled to get free & in the process scratched her up pretty bad. We had to take her to the ER where she got stitches in her forehead & right by her eye =( The next day was the 2 hour trip to Traverse City for Julie & Sabrina's ophthalmologist appt. Julie does not have a lazy eye & she has perfect vision so she remains as my only child with no medical issues lol. Sabrina's eye muscle surgery was scheduled, it'll be Nov. 8th. I was shocked @ how quickly it is I thought there would be a long wait, so happy it won't be long from now. Umm I think that's it but I may have forgotten something in there I'm sure lol Until next time ... Nitey Nite =) http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/10/where_to_begin_lol.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/10/where_to_begin_lol.html General Life Rugrats Updates Fri, 19 Oct 2007 22:19:47 -0500 Collarbone & Art update Wonderful news, Nick will not need surgry afterall. The breaks are healing great on their own so they are gonna keep him only using the sling. So no cast or surgery. He goes back on Friday for another xray to make sure everything is still improving =) I also have signed Catie up for art class, she is so excited about it =D *let's out a sigh* things are starting to fall into place ... now just need to get through Catie & Sabrina's surgeries successfully then I can let out a long sigh & finally relax some lol http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/10/collarbone_art_update.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/10/collarbone_art_update.html General Life Rugrats Mon, 08 Oct 2007 18:13:02 -0500 Oh Boy! lol *sigh* well Friday night Nick went to a friends birthday party. Well these 13 year old boys thought it would be a great idea to play football without gear & not "touch football". Nick got slammed by one of his friends & he ended up breaking his collarbone in 2 places :o He will need surgery so it can heal properly. So looks like 3 of my 4 children will end up with surgery within 6 months (maybe sooner I won't know Sabrina's date until the 15th) - Nick for his collarbone, Catie for her dental surgery & Sabrina for her eye muscles. Life has gotten quite interesting lately lol Julie is taking Cheerleading classes. I must admit I never in a million years would've thought I'd do something like that lol. She is enjoying it so much though and that's the most important thing. I still need to get her signed up for gymnastics, which I also know she'll be thrilled with taking. I had signed Catie up for cheerleading too but she didn't enjoy it, thankful we pay per class so i didn't lose any money lol. I think with her I'm gonna stick with non physical things since most physical things are hard for her. There's a place that offers art classes in town & I know for a fact she will love that =D Other then that not too much going on, just same ole daily mommy stuff :p http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/10/oh_boy_lol.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/10/oh_boy_lol.html Life Rugrats Sun, 07 Oct 2007 12:44:33 -0500 MRI & more a lot of issues in there but thankfully all can & will be taken care of at once under anesthesia. Nothing new with Nick. He's still being a teenager with attitude lmao What's going on with me? Oh, I'm just thinking of what life is gonna be like in a few short years when Sabrina starts preschool & after as she gets into elementary school etc, since she is my last baby, so I will have a lot of free time I'm not use too nor have had in almost 14 years lol. So I stopped & picked up a book about classes offered @ the college in Petoskey. I'm interested in Photography. I'm also eyeing up taking Spanish & maybe psychology which has always been an interest of mine. I don't know if I'll take any of them with the goal of a certificate or degree but definitely for my own personal learning. I also most likely won't start any until Sabrina gets into school so 3-5 years since I may wait until she's in school 5 days a week & for a full day, so Kindergarten. But, if they offer any of the classes I'm interested in as Online courses I may take them within a year. Well that's it for now - Good night Zzzz ;)]]> http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/09/mri_more.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/09/mri_more.html Life Rugrats Updates Mon, 17 Sep 2007 22:46:00 -0500 6 month Well Baby Appt Sabrina had her 6 month well baby appt today. She's doing great. She now weighs 15lbs 15ozs & is now 26 1/2" long =) She has finally been diagnosed with GERD / Acid Reflux. I've suspected this since a month old. At first I thought that or colic but it continued after 4 months. So I let her Dr know she is still spitting up after every feeding, burping/farting a lot (& let me tell ya the farts & burps that come out of this baby is not normal for babies lmao I mean sheesh even Nick is impressed lol) she also gets very gassed up & cries in pain, arches her back ... the whole works. Anyhow, he prescribed her Zantac which is suppose to help. A month ago I had changed her to Soy formula & putting rice cereal in it to help (long story why she isn't breastfed =( :cry: ), that helped some but not enough. Now that she's dx'ed with GERD I've done more research & joined a few groups, so I may be changing her to another formula that is suppose to work wonders with GERD babies along with their meds. *fingers crossed* I just want her to feel better & not be in such pain. Speaking of research lol after her appt with the Ophthalmologist I couldn't remember if he had said her newest dx was rare. Well after researching, I did hear right. Her newest dx of Congenital Ocular Fibrosis of the Extraocular Muscles (CFEOM) is rare & of course that means there isn't much info out about it =( I tell ya between them all, by the time their all adults I could join the medical field lmao **click their names on the left to read their indivdual medical issues. Well I'm off to bed - night everyone =) http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/08/6_month_well_baby_appt.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/08/6_month_well_baby_appt.html Rugrats Tue, 14 Aug 2007 22:31:55 -0500 Sabrina eye update Hi everyone, Ok here is the update from Sabrina's appt with her Ophthalmologist. She was much more cooperative this time =D She has in her Left eye only Congenital Strabismus, Esotropia & Hypotropia (as I wrote last post) and congenital ocular fibrosis of the extraocular muscles. (basically the muscles in the inner corner & the bottom are too tight. She does not have the other 2 things he thought it could be. She needs to have a MRI though next month to get a better look on everything. And more then likely will need surgery to loosen the muscles. For now though she needs to wear a patch on her good eye for a total of 2 hours per day. She hates when her good eye is covered since she can't see very well @ all out of her left eye. Yesterday (the 9th) was the first day of this & boy was she pissed about it. The first 15 minutes each time was difficult for both of us. I spilt it up to 4 times a day for 30 minutes to hopefully make it easier on her. You can tell she is having issues when her right eye is patched as her balance is off & she is more on edge & jumpy =( Hopefully soon this will improve as her left eye gains strength. Can you believe Sabrina turned 6 months old yesterday (the 9th) she's 1/2 way through with the first year already! Nick, Catie & Julie are doing great still enjoying their summer vacation =D That's it for now it's past my bedtime lol http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/08/sabrina_eye_update.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/08/sabrina_eye_update.html Rugrats Fri, 10 Aug 2007 00:02:29 -0500 Soccer & Ophthalmologist Updates Tonight was Nick's last soccer game of the season. His team is proud to announce they are the only team to end the season undefeated =D As I wrote in my last post, the team sportsmanship is what made this team so great. We're proud of each & every one of them & of course their coach! Here is the scores for the season: 4-2 ; 2-2 ; 6-3 ; 2-1 ; 4-0 ; 8-1 ; 1-1 ; 2-1 ; 1-0 ; 2-1 ; 8-2 Sabrina's first appt with the Ophthalmologist was today. For sure her left eye has Congenital (born with) Strabismus, Esotropia & Hypotropia. She wasn't fully cooperative so he isn't 100% sure but thinks she may also have 'Brown's Syndrome' & 'optic nerve hypoplasia'. She needs to go to his main office next month to try again. If she's still uncooperative then another appt so she can be put under general anesthesia to get a better look & a definite diagnosis, then we'll proceed with her treatments. Catie & Julie are still enjoying their summer =D As for me? lol I'm doing good. Just tired - Sabrina was sleeping through the night for months 2, 3 & 4 but starting about 2 weeks ago decided she didn't like that anymore so has been waking up for 2 feedings. I bet as soon as I'm adjusted to this then she'll start sleeping through night again lol. http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/07/soccer_ophthalmologist_updates.html http://mysticalsoul.net/mt/soul/2007/07/soccer_ophthalmologist_updates.html Rugrats Mon, 16 Jul 2007 21:44:25 -0500