2 Poems by me .... First a back story of how they came about .... on Saturday after I talked to My Love ♥ - after a rough day emotionally for us ... it's like everything hit us at once ... him being denied parole again, the phones @ the new facility suck so bad it's not even funny & other little things with that place ... and as I was waiting the 20 minutes for him to keep trying to use the phone ("all circuits are busy" *rolls eyes*) to call me back a 2nd time - I grabbed my pen & paper and for the first time in awhile a couple poems of sorts came to me .... He'll be reading these in his Monday jpay, but I felt I should post them here too ... maybe so others can get a glimpse into this head of mine concerning the denial, transfer to new facility, etc.

I know some people may think I share too much on my [facebook] status' but reality is, I really don't - I keep so much shit bottled up or only share my true feelings with My Love ♥ - I mean sure I share about my love for him & sometimes my bitchiness, but rarely my sadness - my falling apart emotionally ...

Anyhow, I've rambled a lot in the intro lol ... so here ya go ...

1.

this bed is cold & lonely
this heart is sad & scared
this mind is dark & dreary
this hope is fading & falling
this love is strong & brave
this us is always & forever

- written by becky a. smith 08.28.10

2.

thinking of eleven more years
until you’re physically here with me
breaks my heart but, your love mends
it back together every night
giving me a new strength to
carry through another day

- written by becky a. smith 08.28.10

*The eleven years thing is how much longer until he maxes out
I don't believe he'll max out, but it is a growing fear of mine.